Babysitting one of the kids from work yesterday made me realize that I actually want something I've been denying for a while.
Children.
Adoption was always the plan, will always be the plan, but part of me now wants to have children of my own.
Thinking about children leads to thinking about marriage/engagement. Which leads to worries about the future.
I just want to stay in the present for a while. And I really do not want to go to work tomorrow, but what can I do, really? Nothing. Exactly. Thanks for your help.
Ugh. I'm poor. And tired. And I fear a fight will be happening soon.