I'm going through the "is my major the right major for me" blues once again. While trying to concentrate on my developmental psych text book, it hit me. Is this for me? Am I doing this because I want to, or because there really isn't anything else? Am I doing this just because I find it interesting? Is the subject being interesting to me a big enough reason to major in something?
I'm afraid I'm going to waste all of my time majoring in pyschology only to, in the end, discover I was completely wrong and now have a useless degree for me.
And, to add to my future fears, what if I do get this degree only to become a housewive, like every other woman I know with a psychology degree? I don't want to be "just a housewive". Yes, I want to get married and have children and all that jazz, but I want to actually do something with my life. For some women, all they need is to take care of the family and home. But that will not be fullfilling to me. If I get stuck in that mode, I will end up being one of those women who go insane and leave the family.
All these things I've probably written about before, more than once I am certain. But they are worries that I cannot get out of my head. I've prayed to make sure that this is the right things for me, but either the answers have not been given yet or I've just been ignoring them.
I wsih I had a mentor to talk to. I don't want to talk to someone my own age; I want to talk to someone I look up to and admire. But, when I try to come up with one person, I end up lacking.
I'm off to do more homework to keep my mind off of things. I'm not sure if this will actually work or if it will, in fact, only make matters worse. Maybe if I stay clear of the psychology textbook for a while, things will go back to normal.