I posted this originally at livejournal. I'm just going to copy/paste it. Ignore the comments concerning LJ....
I hadn't planned on returning. Granted, I hadn't planned on leaving. I just found myself getting less and less interested in LJ. Though, I must say I have missed the correspondence I had with people on here, though few they might be. I'm almost afraid to even glance at my friend's list to see all the lives I've missed.
But, I do have an hour and a half to kill. So who knows what I'll end up doing?
I'm not announcing my return.
But I might be updating more often. Just because I've been rather miserable lately. To the point where I haven't been happy with myself, and I doubt those around me have been happy with me. They're sticking by me, though, so yay for friends.
I'm not exactly sure what's been wrong, but I've been in a major funk since I got back from Indiana after Christmas. I've been sinking into a deeper depression, drinking a lot more, partaking in drug usage when I've always said I would never do such a thing. But that's another topic all together....
As for the drinking...I've reach drunkard status, I do believe; left the social drinker status quite a few shots ago.
School isn't going well. I've missed too much. I'm behind in two of my four classes. I'm afraid I won't be able to catch up. I'm afraid I'm going to fail this semester...but maybe that's for the best. I don't really want to be in school. I'd rather be working and having fun. Yea...I have my priorities straight. The only thing I look forward to now is the effin' drunk-end.
This week has blown majorly. (And literally, I suppose....) This past Sunday, my car died. Completely. Like I need a new motor died. My mom and I got into a huge fight over it and she basically broke up with me, telling me she'd leave me alone and only offer financial advice when she was able to. She has not done this, though. I do believe she's called me more since she stated that than she has before.
So I missed classes last week due to illness and classes this week due to not having a ride. Wonderful, really. I've had a rental car since Wednesday, but I have to take it back Saturday. Which means next week, I have to figure out a way to get to work from school. At least I have a ride to school and cannot use not having a car as an excuse anymore.
As for my car, the only motor we found was lacking a warranty. Which would mean if my car died the next day, we'd be out $1000. So my mom kept looking and found one with a one-year warranty. And the guy who has it said he could fix my car in three days. So I'd have it by the end of next week.
The other option, and my favorite, actually, is me getting my mom's car that she's driving now and her getting a new one. They're going to go look tomorrow so hopefully I'll know soon. Either way, I'm hoping to have a car by next weekend.
There are other things.
But those need to go in "friends only" updates.
So...we'll see if I stick around or not.